How can people be so two faced for so long? How could they be your ‘little sister’ and lie to your face about stuff and hurt you so bad? I don’t understand what I did to you. I was so good to you and you turn around and treat me like shit. Why would you do something like that to me? How could you back stab me and hurt me so bad? I don’t understand how you could say you were sick of me when I never did anything but help you and talk to you about your problems? All we did was talk about YOU, you never once asked me if I was okay when I was so hurt and all you could talk about was you and how good your life was… I’m so hurt by you :,( You were supposed to be my little sister there for each other till the end. I planned on helping you no matter what. I was there even threw the scariest times in your life and this is how you repay me?? I don’t understand how I could have been such a horrible friend… </3

So you can fucking kick my ass to the curb for friends and family and then I show that I’m not pissed off at all but when I do it you get hella pissed?! Wow! And when I get mad your like wtf why the hell are you mad and I tell you and then you say but you do this to me all the time! I haven’t fucking done that not once! What the fuck! Then when I say just text me or call me later you get all pissed and ask me why I don’t want to stay on the phone then I tell you why should I if I’m just going to get ignored and then you say your not ignoring me and talk like three sentences to me and then go back to your fucking conversation! I fucking hate how you do that! Then I tell you what’s your problem then you get even more pissed! Wtf! Maybe going to Great America will release some tension between us but I don’t know. I hope like hell that things are going to get better, but I don’t think they will… I wish we could go back to the first few months of when we datted when shit was better… :,( Why do you make me feel like shit? I don’t ever do that to you… Why do I continuosly try if I know things may never get better? I just want you to love me and be as happy as I am with you, but if I can’t do that I want you to find some one who can. I have given up all of my friends for you and you still all of your even if I don’t like you tell me to get over it. Wtf? I personally don’t get it but as long as your happy that’s all that matters. Babe I love you :(

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So today was interesting. Today in science I found out from my good friend Brittney that I am more lesbian then straight she just proved everything I thought. Lol thank you brittney and that damn test. Ahaha today was a good day(:

Me, my beautiful sweetheart, and my sister(: love them both.<3 (:

Haha brittney honey you know you want me(:

Your always on my mind. Like a curse but unlike a curse it’s sweet and tender loving so I guess it’s not a curse at all. I love looking into your big brown sweet eyes. You’re amazing, impossible to get out of my mind, so sweet and tender, and absolutely incredibly amazingly indescribable. I love being in your arms when we lay down at your house and watch movies. I can be myself when I’m with you. I cannot describe the way you make me feel. You are the reason I wake up in the morning. You give me meaning. You were the puzzle piece missing in the crazy puzzle I call life. You are my boo<3 I don’t know what I would do with out you. I don’t know what I would do if I ever lost you. You are absolutely indescribable. You are sweet you have a tender touch and you cannot be replaced you have left an everlasting impression on my life and you have changed me for the better and thank you baby boo I love you and I know that is a a simple four letter word but it has such big meaning behind it.. I love you. I shall forever and always be your girl.

Well im not a hoe bag :( I don’t get why she called me one… But it’s okay I guess. I tend to have that reputation… It dosnt really matter. I just wish I could just change my rep.. I’m hurt even if I don’t show it… I smile and ACT like nothing is wrong… Well people think I’m so strong but I’m not… I can cry myself to sleep… But it dosnt matter.

How is it possible to love some one as much as I love you? It seems absolutely unbelievable! Every day seems like a dream when I’m with you. When I look in your eyes I see the futer. It’s absolutely crazy. When we first met I never knew it would end up like this. Walking in the rain is awesome, but walking in the rain with you just makes it the slightest bit more amazing<3 When we lay in your bed my heart begins to race, I get butterflies, I blush, and I realize I wouldn’t want to be any where else but with you. You have become the light in my life.You are amazing and I don’t want to be with any one else but your amazing self. My love grows every waking day towards you. I never wanna leave your side. A beautiful friend ship bloomed into an even more beautiful relationship. You are the most amazing person in my eyes. You make my heart skip a beat when I hear your voice. It’s absolutely amazing the feeling I get when I’m with you. Well I could go on with the subject for days so I will stop here…